31 Posts in 31 Days
It’s two months into 2019 and while I’ve been fairly productive the past couple of months the feeling that I could and should do more has been nagging at me. Finding my footing on this blog has been harder for me than I thought it would be, which is a big reason why I defer to sharing rider profiles. It’s so much easier to tell someone else’s story and to show the greatness they’ve accomplished. Because of this I’ve decided to post once a day, every day, for the month of March.
I’ll be honest, this is going to be a challenge for me. I don’t have any pre-planned posts and expressing myself through writing isn’t my strong suit. That being said I think there’s a time in everyone’s life when you realize that the thing you’re passionate about and want to accomplish mean nothing if you don’t have the discipline to put in hard work everyday to achieve them.
Being passionate about something is great, but it doesn’t accomplish anything for you. And that’s the rut I’ve fallen into. There are big long term goals I have, for my health, my horses, and my life, but for the past year (I’m cringing as I’m writing this) I’ve been stopping myself from putting in the work on day to day basis.
Because I’m scared.
It’s so much easier to say that you want things, that you’re going to do them, tomorrow, the day after, the day after that, no you’ll just start next week. It’s terrifying to think of every little thing that goes into achieving your goals. That even if you try hard, put in the effort, do everything right, that things still might not work out for you. It’s a nightmare that keeps me up and justifies that small sad voice in my head that says it’s ok, that great thing you want isn’t meant for you.
But I’m done.
I’m done being scared. I’m done making excuses for myself. I’m done saying that it’s not a big deal and letting time pass me by without anything to show for it. And I’m done doubting myself.
I’m going to replace that fear with doing something everyday that brings me closer to my goals. I’m going to replace it with hard work. I’m going to replace it with self love. And this time next year, I’m going to look back at what I accomplish, feel proud, and keep moving forward.
1 out of 31 posts complete. 30 more to go.