Chetak Horses

I Don’t Want To

Since the 1st of this month everyday I’ve been making a committed effort to do the things I don’t want to.

I don’t want to eat healthy.

I don’t want to exercise.

I don’t want to organize my day.

I don’t want to set short term goals.

I don’t want to plan out my life.

I don’t want to wake up early.

There are so many things I don’t want to do.  Things that are hard.  Things that are persistent issues in my life that aren’t going away anytime soon.  While writing the things I don’t want to do down and confronting them I realized how much I tell myself everyday not to do the important things or flat out avoid them.  And then I asked myself would I do the same thing to any of my friends?  Would I tell them not to work towards their goals, to avoid the hard work, to just give up on what’s important to them?

No I wouldn’t.

I would encourage them.  I would tell them that the impossible task they want to accomplish will be so worth it.  I would help them find ways to succeed.  I would push them to be their best selves even when they weren’t feeling their best.  And I would tell them that they can do anything they put their mind to.

And I realized it’s time to show that same love to myself.

This week I’ve done a lot of things I don’t want to, and it’s the best I’ve felt in a long time.  It’s made me realize that the strides you make towards your goals happen in the moments you decide to do the thing you don’t want to.  When you finally say nothing is getting in my way, including myself.